Babybat Poem Post #6 (The last one. I promise I'm done torturing you)

Okay so this is the last poem I've ever written ever...Nothing much to say here so *click*:

Hopeless

Lights are dim,

My mind is mixed, I'm feeling grim.

My emotions uncontrollable, I'm about to take a swim,

Into this sea of complication

A place of permanent vacation,

A room locked up filled with all of my implications.

Why does it have to be me, I know this is my mind, I know This is my head..

But what is there left for me, disappear or play dead?

I’m tired of all this acting, smile and play nice.

But pretty soon I’m gonna explode another disaster like the titanic except a bigger piece of ice.

My life is a game and I’m just a pawn.

Pretty soon I’m gonna lose, and then I’ll be gone.

All it takes is a gust of wind, just another small sin,

And then Ill be down, unable to get back up, forever pinned.

I’m fighting a hopeless battle, a lost cause,

Loss is near so death is beginning to open it’s mouth and swallow me whole, tightening it’s jaws.

I’m getting ready to fall,

All there is left for me is emptiness, and no’one to stop me, no’one to stall.

My lights are blinking just about to go out..

I’m closing my eyes clutching myself tightly my face set in a sad pout.

But then a flicker, of light,

Maybe I don’t have to go down this road, I’m starting to really see, life is a amazing sight,

And its worth putting up a fight.

I step back, suddenly afraid of death, slowly, I step away from the rope,

Then my foot slips, I fall back, my breathing tightens and I fade away as I lose all hope.

So that's the last poem I will ever post (unless for some odd reason I think I'm actually a good writer and start again.) For those of you who loved it, I'm sorry. For those of you who hated it...still sorry.

Babybat Poem Post #5

This? Oh it's just another break-up poem. Hey since we're on the subject, you wanna know a secret? *whispers* I've never broken up with a girl before. Honestly, I haven't. Every time my relationships end it's always either they lose interest, or they cheat on me.... :/ Anyways, here's the poem:

Insomnia

You are forever buried in a chasm of darkness,
Your name will be a lasting curse to me.
Hell shall devour your earthly goodness
Such a lie, you made tears a memory.

Promises you gave which never reached heaven
I loathe every damn picture of bliss
You left my heart in total unbearable burden
You poisoned me with your last kiss.

The night comforts me with an eerie feeling
But I guess everything is much brighter
In the darkness, I cast my eyes to the ceiling
And see nothing but silhouette of an ever after.

Now it's over and you leave me with open eyes
Tears rage down with hymns of lore
I still think of you despite your disturbing lies
I dream, but not of love anymore...



I can't exactly remember when I wrote this. Probably when I was 13 or something.

Babybat Poem Post #3 & 4

I can't sleep so I might as well give you guys (and ladies) something to read. I think this was the first poem I have ever written. I wrote this at the end of 6th grade which is when I REALLY started to get into the subculture, but still didn't know as much as I do know.I'm not really sure the reason why I wrote this. I think this is when I was getting bullied and I was having suicidal thoughts going in and out of my brain. (Yes I was suicidal, but it's okay. I'm fine now. That was a LONG time ago and my view on everything changed so don't worry :) )

Hate

Two shots of hate from a mouth as loud as a gun,
Like an assassin ... who does it for fun.

Two deafening blows in a war that has just begun,
Life gone away...I'm done.

Two red roses sitting on my coffin, the wind blows, leaving only one
The world I know disappears...like the setting sun.

Okay, that wasn't long enough so I think I'll post another. (Your welcome :P) This one was from late 8th grade. My moms ex-fiance used to abuse me. (Your probably wondering why I'm telling you all these things. If I tell people it helps me let go) This went on for about a year in a half. I didn't tell my mom because he made her so happy and I didn't want to ruin that for her. Thankfully the wedding was called off because he was too controlling of her. But before then I wrote this:

Black Roses

This pain, for so many years,

Left me in a state impossible to shed tears.

Inside, I cried.

Within, were strings in my heart, tightly they were tied.

You could throw me, you could beat me,

You could whip me in a circle of your greed,

I could sit, wait and bleed.

My deterioration was your elation.

It's this wretched place,

It's got me crazed one way and you in many others,

For you, your heart fluttered.

For me, my mind went to the gutter.

If I could be blessed by your death,

You'd get my blessings by my last breath.

But on this day of gloom

Inside the black roses always bloom.

You love it when I abide to what you wanted,

If I resigned like a dog I'd be hunted.

Although alone I was always treated like a dog

and alone I licked my wounds

in the distance you laughed like a fool

but I could care less

nail me to the wall with you and your tools

I'd enjoy that foolish look on your face

Hell, I'd look you in the eyes and you'd question me being out of place

You could throw me, you could beat me,

You could whip me in a circle of your greed,

I could sit, wait and bleed.

My deterioration was your elation.

As these days pass soon I will disappear without a trace

And all I could hope for is never again see your face.

All I ask if my prayer is granted

that seeing your heart stop is surely a great deal of magnificence

Let alone the thought of your absence

I'd be glad to bless my own prayer one way or another

When I strike you you'd utter a small word

a yell of plea

but let's be glad in the end we'll both be set free.

I came up with the title because black roses symbolize death (if you didn't know that already.) It's a bit dark, but I hated that man. It's taken some years, but I just recently forgave him. Okay I think I gonna try to get some sleep. I've got school in the morning..well in a few hours...

Babybat Poem Post #2

First off, I would like to say that I do not like the way my title looks. It's supposed to be all curvy and what not but sometimes when I look at it it just looks plain...weird. Well here's my second poem and it's fairly short. I wrote this after my ex broke up with me a few weeks before 9th grade started. We lasted just about a year (not that you really care lol)

The Breakup

What have you done to me?
A shadow of chaos as emotions creep.
Once we enjoyed bliss,
Childlike and innocent,
But your heart drifted away.
A painful cloud of darkness -
Tears follow blood, follow hate,
Love burnt to ashes.
In a haze of sorrow,
I still love you.

I love cheesy romance movies and I guess I'm the type of guy who is always searching for my true love. Which I guess seems kinda silly 1: Because I'm only 15 and 2: Divorce rates these days are super high which makes me question if we will ever really find 'The One.' I think of marriage as a sacred thing and if I ever do get married I want her to be as close as possible to perfect. I want us to have a strong connection and never drift apart. I guess it's not silly as it gives me something to look forward to. Sorry this when from a simple poem post to a look into my innermost thoughts, but I guess that's what these blogs are for, right?

Babybat Poem Post #1

Okay so since this is my first poem post I guess I should explain what they are and why I picked that title. These are just random poem posts that i wrote in 7th and 8th grade (basically before I knew anything about being goth other than the music.) These poems have only been shown to my closest friends and now I'm showing them to you (and posting them to facebook first. Which would explain the white background on it.) Keep in mind that these are extremely badly written. My excuse is that writing was never my best talent.. Well here it is. Enjoy. (Or not.)

Where Love Ends And Pain Begins

The end of love, the start of pain

The blood from my heart that now aches, stains

With the thought of your image, the thought of your care

Devoted to another, whilst my spirit is bare

Where am I to go, where is my hope now

Am I no longer important like our dedicated vows

You promised to always be there, and love me no matter what

But it seems you've moved on, loved another and forgot

The breakdown of our relationship, the break of my poor heart

You punctured it with your cruel ways; you stabbed it with a dart

You took away my faith, my dreams, I now have nothing left

My happiness has disappeared; a brutal act of theft

You promised to always be there, but now it all depends

On if you've found another love and when my heartache ends